Wondering

Hi Zach, no pictures this time, just a quick note. Going to see Nana & Granddad this weekend and that always makes me sad when I think of your not being in their lives anymore. They did nothing to you but love you unconditionally Zach and now their hearts have been broken. Mine has been too, for a long time. There are many days when I wonder how a son could completely reject his mother and brother, his own flesh and blood. Many families have issues Zach, and many members of those families make mistakes. But where is the forgiveness? Whatever mistakes I made, I have tried to make restitution and none were so egregious that utter lifelong rejection is the solution. It makes no sense.That kind of rejection takes a lot of hatred to carry around and hatred is a heavy weight on one's soul. Your brother and I love you deeply as well as the rest of your family here in California and none of us have done anything so horrible as to deserve your complete rejection. I keep hoping and praying that one day you will see the effects this poisonous outlook will have on the rest of your life and your future relationships.I may not be the best example of a spiritual person, but I do believe in God and I don't think he would be in agreement with your decisions to cut us out of your life. As always, I continue to wish that you will reach out soon before too much time passes. My next note will be more cheery, I promise. I Love you so much Zach.

Mom
XOX