Happy Thanksgiving, Christmas is on its way!

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Well Zach Thanksgiving has come and gone and it's just over 3 weeks until Christmas. Another year has flown by and without any word from you. That scares me more than anything. We all spent the holiday at your Uncle Gregg's and he was chatting with Nana and granddad saying the same thing. He is scared too, not for himself and Auntie Kim but for your grandparents who have suffered another year with broken hearts over their lost grandson. It's so not fair for them and that is the greatest tragedy in all of this. They cry a lot for you and also for your brother who has lost part of his family As well. Holidays are for getting together with loved ones and enjoying family traditions and you are missing out on all of that. I only wish that the spirit of this season would grow strong enough in you that you could finally reach out or respond to our messages of love and hope. If for no one else but Cody as sometimes he seems so lost in life. As strong as he is, he has a huge heart and and there is a hole in it that only you can fill.

Jeff and I went Christmas shopping in San Francisco yesterday and spent today getting the house organized and decorated for Christmas...the palm trees are up and sparkling and all of the kitties are exhausted from exploring all the boxes and items that were pulled out. I made potato leek soup for dinner as it rained all day and sounded like a good idea. Going to try pesto minestrone later in the week. Got a couple friends birthdays coming up that will be celebrated over dinner and a group of us are getting dressed up and going to an evening performance of the San Francisco Ballet's Nutrcracker. In between I need to finish Christmas shopping, wrap gifts, mail cards and ship packages. Whew! I am sure you are gearing up for finals in school and getting ready to see everyone during Christmas break. I hope you had a wonderful thanksgiving Zach and that you are safe, happy and surrounded by good and supportive friends. I miss you so very much and wish every day that we could reunite and work things out. 

Love,
Mom
xox

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